New here & already posted in the Intro!

Long story ok... I suffer from Combat PTSD/Major Depression from War and Emergency Services work.

I work nights basically alone as a Data Center Analyst. No politics or bosses around to mess with my mind.

When I do meet with the boss maybe a few times a month I usually don't say anything and listen to what he's saying for a few minutes than I start thing about choking him out.

Last week I blew up about a payroll issue that has messed my paycheck up at least 5 times this past year.

Anyways he has excuses for everything and I just lost it and spouted out some 4 letter words and pounded his cubicle and walked away before it got worse. Well I was written up for this which was ok, he took it to our Director and then HR and made a big deal about it. This Dude is out to fire me and I have a large family to take care of. Some vets have encouraged me to try and get IU and not work. See I need to get away from my family sometimes or I will go postal big time. My life is work night alone and sleep with some periods of time with the wife and kids. All I want to do is be left alone ! I do my job and I dont go the extra mile for some Company that could care less and fire me at any moment.

Another thing is I am going through Med changes getting off Zoloft and using Celexa. I think thats the brand names.

Anyways some of Y'all maybe able to relate to the things I'm saying and I just needed to get this off my chest.

Peace Out!