I am a 40 year old female who suffers from PTSD.
I lost my entire Family in a series of un-related events in a about a 3 year span .My Step Father (best friend ) 1n 97 .My only Sibiling My Sister in 2000 .I didn't like her , It makes me feel bad , My Mom 10 months later . My Mom was in a coma for 5 days and I had to remove her from Life support . My Biological Dad died when I was 7 in a truck accident .
I was 7 months pregnat with my son when my Step dad died in 97 . Just 42 days after being Diagnosed with cancer . My Sis died of a Heroin overdose . My Mom collapsed in a store parking lot not breathing . In 99 My husband and I did cpr on a neighbors child 20 months old .Who did not survive his death was probably due to neglect he was gone already 3 hours when 911 call was made .
I while browsing around this site read something about fear . I live with terrible amounts of fear . I am married with 2 kids .My Daughter is 20 and shows definate signs of anxiety or PSTD too . My son is 10 and has Asperger's disorder .
I Live in Michigan . Although I was born in New Orleans .
Just trying to find someone to connect with . I have no real friends .I cannot call my Therapist everyday . And the stresses and struggles of life keep Coming at you .
My marriage is more than likely over . I have only been in therapy 3 weeks and that is because I went to Er and asked for help .We are un insured , they wanted to commit me to the Psych ward and as much as I could used a vacation from my life , family , SELF . I have no one to care for my Son .
I like my therapist she seems to be Sassy enough to stand up to me . She gave me her cell phone # , but I feel guilty to have to call . An Hour a week is not enough time to cover a life unravelling at the seems .
I feel almost guilty , typing this out I know so many have it so much worse than I do . I just really want to get healthier and I have to stop isolating myself . I am afraid and alone