I guess I think that was part of my question. Exposure. I still do exposure therapy. Nice thing it is controlled. I can do a little, get sick and recover and then hit it again all the while controlling how much to control how sick. Keep repeating until I just get anxious or am better. Anniversaries. Those cannot be put into a controlled situation. They happen and they last until it is done. I know exposure does not work for anything if you are only doing it twice a year either.

Over exposure won't allow healing and living around Houston was over exposure and kept me very sick. Hence my move. I had to do a lot before I got to the point of even attempting exposure therapy.

Just too much exposure can make you collapse. The general time of year I guess just makes you crash. I have such a hard time accepting this is a trigger I cannot beat. As I cannot say OK I will take on this much of it now, and in a week or so a little bit again... It is just all in your lap at once. I guess it just really pisses me off to be reminded I am really sick. Just as you round the bend to think well maybe I have just some anxiety issues and not really PTSD the nightmares, collapsing, puking, pains, insomnia (gets worse), the escape route you are looking for returns, everything just comes back to bite you on the ass and points out yes, you do have it and one of these days you will accept it. OK I am just bitching now ;)