Why can't people step into my shoes, see things from my point of view. We are having company soon, and if my boy is better from the illness he is going through he will be around other family members. That idiot that abused me once will be there, and someone in the family had the audacity to ask if I was going to allow him the chance to hold him. Are they crazy? He abused and screwed me up, and they want me to allow him to hold him. All I think about when I see him, is why not end is worthless life, and I have never thought of allowing him to hold my own children. My family thinks this is uncalled for, they say it happened along time ago, and I say so what it still happened.
Am I wrong to feel this way, am I just being selfish as my parents say?
Lost,
Shane