For it to be short as this it sounds like a good ole' attack. They suck but normal. If people pipe in here you would be amazed at how many have panic attacks from new drugs. Hubs says I jinx myself over anti anxiety meds until they have to give me such a high dose it knocks me on my ass. Valium is candy. ADs I end up in ER and off except zoloft it took a while to get off (I did not freak out on it as I was put on it before my med phob when I found out a hub had a boyfriend my first time!) and against docs orders even though I was very ready to off myself (good doc huh?). They have to dope me up in ER to bring me down. I do not do meds well myself due to bad reactions so now any pill gives a bad reaction. My Xanax induces an attack now and makes them worse when I think they can get no worse. I am having to take it every few days for about a week now. I took it for a couple years at a high dose no issue and still get sick now from it, go figure since was addicted.

It is certainly an element of trust with giving up control. Now you know this will not hurt you or kill you so after taking it a few more times you will be OK. For me any way I have to take a pill at least a few times and then get better to handle doing it. Some send me so over my docs would not go near again. Others just made me freak but not so far they would pull me.

It is OK to need drugs. It does not mean you are broken or giving up. It is a necessary stepping stool. You will learn what you need in time and what you can live without also. PTSD is a work in progress. Some people do great on some drugs others do horrid at. I suggest never read the bad as you will feel those! I have to force myself to never read a side effect. Really go out of your way not to read it. Zoloft was the worst thing I could have ever taken but a buddy is living a great life with PTSD on it now. The nice thing is most people actually do well on these drugs.

What you describe are some of my symptoms of panic attacks. I recall effexor. Oh lord that was the worst one. I had no color to my eyes when puking and dizzy. It was all black and pupil. After ambulance trying to force air (bad bad combo) and cops figuring out I was not a high meth mom it came to light it was panic pure and simple. Panic makes me puke, poo, dizzy, faint, blown pupils, scream, cannot walk and wobble held up, you know a good panic attack... They suck but know it is fear. We can fight that one just by giving into it. I can give info on that as it has been about a year since if you need. I am trying to do it all over again myself.