I have to echo what everyone is telling you.. I think the death of a close family member causes so very much emotional upheavel that things tend to overwhelm you. He could very possibly be just as scared and upset as you.. he's hurting so very much and lots of people need to greeve in private.. alone. And maybe he did want you to some how fix things and make him feel all better.. but thats not really possible with anyone! I would say.. look at it all as what a huge step you personally took in trying something new! Does it matter that this one time it didn't work out? what matters is you tried! and that is a huge personal step you took!