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Whilst some will work, they may not ever work a full five day week, or even some go on the reverse of all this, and become work acholics, attempting to suppress the stress and anxiety... which always catches up with them.
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I fit with the second option here :) . I started my new job knowing that I had to make sure that I didn't take on too much. I was assertive and turned down an opportunity to course manage as I thought it would be a mistake to take on the extra work. Unfortunately, I ended up getting lots of extra work "because I wasn't a course manager". When I started getting nightmares and flashbacks again I just tried frantically to keep control of my work. Crashed and burned in the end though - again!
I'm thinking this time that I might not ever go back to work full-time. At least with teaching, I may be able to go back as a 0.6 or a 0.8 of full-time. While it would be harder financially, I think I would be happier and I would have free time to devote to looking after me.
The problem I anticipate is whether or not my employer will allow me to change my contract to part-time. I think that they might be obliged to under our disability discrimination laws, but as I haven't been officially diagnosed with anything yet I'm not sure that I qualify for "reasonable adjustments and accommodations".
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Where I have seen positive results, is where some people work within their bounds, ie. they take up a job completely different than they may be used too
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I tried this - I used to be in pig farming before I took time out to sort myself last time. I retrained for teaching. I do really enjoy teaching and I want to keep doing it. To be honest, I don't think it would matter what job I do - I will still have problems unless I can learn how to manage this thing properly.
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I know this sounds negative, but in fact I am just trying to fly past the bullshit and give the honest truth
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This is what I need- no bullshit - just plain truth. I need to understand this thing if I'm going to learn to control it. I may not like the truth, but these rose-tinted glasses need to come off!
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Ive found i just cant focus on a single "job" for a whole day even so i just do alot of different things at once.
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I tend to do that too - I particularly applied for my job due to its variety. I go from teaching mature students at high science level to teaching special needs kids "this is a rabbit". I also do student welfare work which is great, cos you can make a huge difference to some of the homesick teenagers just by playing a game of pool with them (and I'm quite good at pool too! :D )
I think that I need to slow down and stop careering from one class to the next. Maybe my brain is just telling me that I need to look after me a bit more.
Thanks for the advice guys!