Wow...I can be googled. Glad that you found the site.

I too like your response of 'this doesn't feel right'. It's a way to say that you don't know how to exactly what to say, but you need someone to understand that you want to say something. I wish I had thought of it before.

I wrote this original post four months ago. The delayed emotional response is still there. Not as bad as it was. I've been learning to find my voice and actually use it. Harder than it sounds. I can type all day long with no problems. Have me explain anything personal or emotional to someone (even family) and I stammer and stutter and it's a mess. But I keep working on it and making myself talk.

But I will say that it's better than before when I've been confronted with emotional things and be expected to speak and I literally just...couldn't. Speaking just became an impossibility for me at that moment. I now know why and I've explained it to my husband (who doesn't get pissed off and storm out of the room because I won't talk to him when he wants to talk anymore).

This is something that a lot of us have to learn how to do for the first time in either a long time or, like for me, the first time I've allowed it in myself after years of not being allowed to express myself by others.

Lisa