Thank You everyone......

Had an appt with my therapist but unfortunately...this was a bad visit in that i could not concentrate. I just kept hearing counting and the words...breathe, just breathe...over and over in my head. I just feel saddened and almost tricked. Like really he just said "I want you in my life' and then 5 days later....l"you are not ready to be in a relationship. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH This just makes me want to hate men more. Now.....I don't want to trust again. i know i have been through a lot worse and i can handle alot but i feel mixed up, confused and sad today. I just want to be loved that is just the bottom line. I am having a very bad poor me day....sorry!!!