Lisa,

I believe that it will get better for you. Your agonizing over what happened on Saturday is putting increased anxiety on yourself. You could be compounding your PTSD even more.

She Cat does have a very good point. When I started menopause, my memory went to mush. I prided myself on remembering names, dates, account numbers, events and so much more. I always felt like I had my dad's brain. He is very elderly, but sharp as a tack. Well, once peri-menopause kicked in, all that became history. I couldn't remember anything. That combined with the PTSD and taking medication made things really really bad. I thought I would never get my intelligence back. I too have a masters degree, and I felt like I hadn't gotten out of kindergarten.

Well, I am relieved to say that as my menopause is coming to an end, and I have dropped some of the meds I was on, I am starting to regain my memory composure. I'm not panicing, as much, prior to remembering things. Numbers are coming back more freely. I still question myself if they are correct and will check to be sure-but I have been remembering correctly more frequently.

I have spoken to many of my friends going through menopause/peri-menopause and they all are experiencing the same thing. It can start as early as late 30's, early 40's.

Please don't misunderstand what I am saying-this biological change may be starting to cause more havoc on your memory along with the PTSD. Menopause is not the only answer to your problem. (I had a therapist tell me that ALL my problems revolved around the fact that I was going through menopause-needless to say, that didn't help at all).

It really sucks that we have to experience that on top of everything else.