Thank you all for the comments . I took a couple of Baby steps today . I do not have any family they are all gone . Do not really have friends . I called a shelter and the person I need to talk to did not return my call as of yet.

I have no money , Transmission just went out in my car and I couldn't afford that . I cannot go without help from some source . I cannot stay it is to painful here and I cannot afford to live here on my part time income . I do believe I can support myself . The accomodations may not be great . But Ya gotta start somewhere

Why is it so hard to reach out for support , To ask others to be there is that the life I have built for myself or is it a PTSD symptom ?
Paula