While the steps you are about to take will probably be the most difficult of your life please believe me when I say that IT WILL BE WORTH IT AND YOU WILL SURVIVE. I DID!!! and lot of other women in this forum have too. There are stories everywhere about women leaving, struggling, etc. But girl, go for it and follow through. While none of us here in the forum can be there with you to help, please know that we are with you in spirit and here to listen. The time has come to make a major decision---the pain you are in or the relief of being safe and happy and secure. Keep us posted HERC