I haven't written about this issue here before. I really felt that no one would get it, as it pertains to my son but is part of my PTSD and I'm really struggling with it.I spoke at length with V about it the other night and after talking about it, I decided it might also help to get view points here.

I can not see a future for Matt. When I try to think about Matt's future I just see a big blank. I can't imagine him continuing school, working, getting married etc... I know this is based on my experience and the fact that I can't see my own future. It's also from being undiagnosed since I was a teen and having to struggle through the years alone with this.

I know that Matt and I are unusual in that we both have this and that it gives us a bit of an advantage in communicating. I know that I've fought to get Matt help and that I'm his main support to get better. I know there are positives, I just can't seem to get past the feeling that his PTSD has eradicated his chances at having a normal and healthy life.

Any further input is appreciated as this really bothers me.

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