Thanks veiled for finding the words I couldn't seem to find. And for understanding what I was trying to say. I'm hoping that with working on relearning old stuff (I hope) and learning new stuff (again I hope) that it helps. If not reverse things, at least stem the tide of loss. I'm still doing research (the Queen of Research rides again!) on cognitive problems associated with PTSD.

Thanks for your post, Donna. Good to see you here again. I understand Ranger's frustrations to the point of yelling. Been there myself.

I finally was able to talk to my husband about what's been going on with me and my frustrations from it and fears that it's not going to get better. It felt good to talk about it instead of letting it roll around my head. It's funny...but even with everything I've been through in the last year and a half with my PTSD, there was still this teeny, tiny part of me that was holding out hope that things would just 'go away'. Most of the time I could just ignore this little, tiny voice. Actually it would only come out when I was feeling really good, really normal. But dealing with symptoms that have been popping in and out for the last month and this memory/learning/cognitive issue, it's like the final nail in the coffin of that small voice of denial that's stayed with me. I even cried last night talking to my husband about it. Not sure why. I guess grieving that last part of the old me that I've been holding onto.

I know it's better and healthier for me to accept what I've become. But it is hard to let go of the old ways that I know I won't get back. Even if it is the last teeny, tiny piece.

Lisa