Bella wrote"...and I catch myself when I'm talking to people or doing something looking around because I need to know whats going on around me"

This is me 100% too! Man, I'm finally connecting a lot of dots. This one I thought was just a personal quirk! I get so self conscious because I know I'm doing the sideways glances and checking to see who is approaching or listening, etc. Thanks, Bella. I reread this entire thread because it is such powerful stuff.

Taking some deep breaths and getting more courage to get this #### out! So this is what 'exposure therapy' is about, eh? Feel the fear and type it anyway!