Thank You so much for your words of encouragement. I guess sometimes I just need someone to remind me of the good things in my life. The good really does outweigh the bad sometimes but when my mind goes into over drive....i need a reality check, a good kick in the arse or just support as you gave me. So, again, thank you very much.

I had a friend come over after work and she helped me too. We are actually moving in together in 2 months...and that is a big positive. i slept 7 hours too and that helped and I did not let myself stay home today and feel sorry for myself. I went to visit my cousin this afternoon. My son was with his grandpa (Papa) so i also had a break. I have special needs children here all the time. I love them all but sometimes they are louder and more demanding than a NT.
My friend is coming after work as well. I know I isolate but at least I realize that now, before I did not. You take care too and i hope your entire family is well.