Kathy, I am so sorry for your loss, losing a child is the worst thing that a parent can go through.

I can imagine that you also feel anger and ask yourself why??? and If ??? those are, of course, questions with no answers !

My cousin's son died tragically in a car accident, due to speeding, in July of this year, he was only 18. And I know they are also angry at him !

I can only imagine the pain they are going through and can also imagine your pain as well !

Let me also add that I sense a lot of compassion, love and strength in you and Jim, and your daughter Evie (it is Evie ? right ?) all the hard and painful things you have gone through, and yet here you are sharing your pain and joys and encouraging and supporting others !

Maybe by doing so, it helps your healing process ? I would hope so :) God Bless !