I thought I was alone....

I would NEVER hurt anyone...But I find myself having thoughts of hurting others and myself! I catch myself and then I want to harm myself for ever even having the thoughts to start with!

I think for me...it has a whole hell of alot to do with whenever I feel....happy....and in a good mood...I find myself stoping myself with these and other types of thoughts....

It's like....I wont let me be happy and safe...and perhaps I even feel myself to be a bad person...
Maybe I am punshing myself...I don't know...anyways...thanks for listening..good to know I am not alone...good luck...

Geneva