When talking about certain things, I am unable to make eye contact with my therapist.

Sometimes she asks for me to look at her, but I can't and she doesn't force it.

Obviously it's about - shame.

Also - I cried quite a bit at our last session. And I found it the most isolating, lonely experience.

I thought it might be relieving or comforting.

But to sit in a chair with someone dead opposite me whilst I cry..well I felt like a rat in a lab.

Which is very odd - when I feel very connected/attached to my therapist, and when she is very compassionate.

But when someone cries I would move to comfort them - perhaps I was expecting this? I don't know.

She murmured all the right sympathies.

But frankly I found it a cold, hollow experience.

I have requested before to sit with my back to her, with my head in the corner, but she was not keen on this.

Could I possibly suggest her not sitting directly in front of me, but to the side perhaps or on an angle?

How do others do it?