I am still having lots of trouble looking at my counselor and not hiding my face. Hes been very accepting of this difficulty, which is making it easier for me to accept that this is how I am right now.

I often watch my counselor's reflection in the window instead of looking at his face. It's the best I can do sometimes. I can only manage to make eye contact for a few moments at a time. I feel very threatened when he sits directly in front of me, so he sits off to an angle and often sits in his chair sideways!

I think as our confidence improves, and as our shame decreases, we can maintain eye contact more and not feel such a need to hide. It's a long process, though.