Well, after a week off from driiving mom to the doc office the merry-go-round starts again and this week is going to be a killer. We have some medical thing EVERY day. With my agoraphobia I need the next day off to recover from a "forced" outside trip. I am bitching but I certainly am not blaming my mom. It is my issue. These outings are suppose to help expand my ability to leave the house but they are causing me to retreat even more when given the chance. I am now to the point where if she has no appt. I will not go out at all. I use the days she has to go someplace to also run my errands, etc so I will not have to leave the house otherwise. I am getting more house bound than less. The car needs an oil change and I simply can't do it. Been there before but now I just can't do it. And my headaches, OH my headaches! They are getting worse and now I get them almost daily. They were gone for such a long time and I hate that they are back. I know it is self imposed stress. I have no idea how to relax. I wish I was normal, this stuff is getting so old. I just want to do things like normal people. Go out to dinner, go to the movies and maybe have an actual date without getting severe diahrea and having to cancel any plans I may have made. I always cancel everything I plan that involves other people. I have not been in a movie theater in probably 30 years, can't go out to dinner--I get to sick, and dating, well that is another matter all together! Have not had a date since 1992. In order to date one has to leave the house. It is difficult to meet someone IN THE HOUSE! I am complete isolated from the world and it is self imposed. Why can't I leave the house????