Sorry to hear what you're going through and i'm thinking right now maybe sometimes i do have what others say ,unrealistic expectations of myself ,its hard to know what to compare things with when you don't really know people having similar experiences and what i think keeps changing.I'm wanting to move house to somewhere with a smaller garden i am unable to cope with garden and it gets done for me,probably going to stay in the same village.
yes i think its fcked up ,and confusing.:-)