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Originally Posted by ovation228  My wife moved out as a result of my PTSD. I'm not certain that it was from being numb that caused me to be blind to the pain she was feeling. I think it's more like that signal was being drowned out by the noise of my own pain. I can see where I've pushed and pulled and pushed and pulled. No wonder she had to get out. I wish more than anything that we could remain close while I learn to cope, but I guess it is passed that. |
Ovation: I'm sorry to hear that your wife moved out. The sentence i bolded above from your post speaks loud and clear...i can see how that could happen...as your thoughts as a sufferer are so muddled, confusing, and all over the place, because you don't know how to feel. It's good that you recognized the push and pull aspect of the relationship. My ex sees that too, and he has told me he knows that i'm hurting as a result of all of this, but he just doesn't know what to say or do.
My heart feels for you, mate. See, it's people like you who are sufferers and sharing your own thoughts and feelings with people like me (carers) who help us to better understand how you feel when it comes to relationships.
I will say that there have been times where i felt like blocking my ex bf off totally so that he could never contact me again...but there's a part of me that just keeps digging the heels in, and telling me to stick around. I hope things between me and him do work out, when he comes home.
Did you hear anything from your wife at all? How are you doing these days?