Hi there

All of this stuff is normal, the responses, how you feel...how is anyone supposed to feel when faced with the person that did that to them...
Your reactions are not strange, and are the same for most of us, regardless of the baloney you can hear from many others (whose worst memory is not getting the right Barbie at Christmas or something similar)

Be aware at the same times of the side effects that some people experience from Cymbalta, we all react differently to medications like that, if you are not sure ask your doc next time, especially if you notice anything at all you think is worse than before. The other thing with some medications, is the withdrawal if they are reduced.

The other thing you may need to do, whether here or with your doc is get this out of your system, and not all pent up inside, even if that is through a private mail to one other person, a helpline, letters or conversations with your doc. Whatever is working for you. Once out in the open somewhere (with one or two others) you might then want to focus more on how you are now. We cannot change the past, but until we have openly discussed it somewhere freely, I do not think that we deal with it either.

Good to see you here, if nothing else you will realise that what is happening is a completely normal response to what noone should ever experience.