Nonie, I have been reading your thread with great interest and I do understand all you are going through so well! I have been in a relationship with an Iraq vet for 7 years, we are now seperated for 7 months because I could not take it any more. He has recently been diagnosed with PTSD, although he has been a sufferer ever since he returned from Iraq in 1991! I have been reading, reading, reading as much as I can, we are in contact and I try to support him I he needs me and I give him space as much as I can. I was also very hurt and angry, helpless and confused because it is just so hard to deal with all these issues. But I also learned that HE is sick, that I can support him but at the same time I have to look after myself in order to be able to go on with MY life. He tells me that he loves me but at the same time needs SPACE, it is so hard to understand this, but I am trying. I am not sure if we will ever be together again, but I know that I will always be there for him if he needs me. If you truly care about your bf, which I believe you do, you will find a way to deal with this! Please take good care of YOURSELF, and do not feel bad about it...All the best!