Oh I forgot:

It really isn't the therapists fault. I'm not very "sharing" in what exactly is going on... She realized after three weeks of EMDR that I had chronic PTSD. I never told her the whole story, I still haven't.

I fear this telling. It's been very difficult. My mother has threatened to have me locked up for being crazy, and has almost succeded a few times, since I was fourteen. My reaction is to hide what is going on and I'm VERY good at it. I'm impressed with my therapist really. She can see a lot more than I'm telling. She even is dealing with my family doctor for me, since that's how my Mother attempts to "lock me up."

Screwy eh?

Bec

P.S. I live in a very small town. It's easy for someone like my mother to breach all procedures and actually make life hell, so these are HUGE steps for me.