Today has been interesting to say the least. Our minister came to visit mother. I can't recall the last time I worked so hard to impress someone. Well, I think impress might be to strong a word. Maybe it is better said that I wanted my mom to be proud of her new home. Made coffee and served pie mom made, then left them to their private time. She has been unable to go to church lately. Since she has such a strong faith and connection to her church I made arrangements for him to come for a pray visit and to give her communion.

We also had a big event that followed. The maintance people came and installed the electric stair climber we got. Now mom can come up stairs without putting herself in danger of falling. My, won't this help ease the STRESS in my life, or at least some of the stress.

I am in much better spirits now than I have been for the past couple of days. Guess I got over my "being mean to myself" phase. I feel a small sense of relief for some unknown reason. Who knows why, who cares why----at least I feel something. I think I need to change my focus! But it is so hard to shake off all of the negative junk in my head. I would much rather climb under the bed and disappear.