To begin with Holly, you should read these two threads:

http://www.ptsdforum.org/thread5669.html

http://www.ptsdforum.org/thread5113.html

Then also, as I said to you in your introduction thread, post what you would like to say or ask of others, as that is your only option until you are out of moderation. Once out of moderation you may send others private messages and use the chat room.