Hercules,

It is okay to be angry. Anger is a natural reaction when our life has been stolen from us. Sometimes we need to vent and let the rage out.

On to the subject of numbness...I was emotionally numb for at least 40 years. The numbness was not from drugs, but I abused drugs and alcohol to numb myself even more. Therapy allowed me to heal from my trauma and the emotional numbness has resolved itself.

I agree with Nie that having emotions allows the trauma to be felt. My flashbacks are more frequent now, but they are not as debilitating. Now emotions are dealt with as they happen and not stuffed in the box in my brain until I hit overload.

vst