I struggle to meet and create new relationships with people because honestly, I don't know how. I do not know how to talk to people. I'm always afraid that people are going to start to talk about me when I'm not there and say bad things, that they are going to stop talking to me altogether.

Needless to say I am not a people person. If my husband and I go out without the children and it's a social type environment, I tend to hide behind him and not make eye contact with anyone.

I don't know. It's like I prefer being alone cause then no one can hurt me but I hate being lonely. Those are contradicting statements that don't even make sense to me.