As this is my first post here, I am very nervous...but I know talking about things will help. My name is Daphne and as my username suggests...I live in Texas and have three kids. In my previous career, I worked as a pedi nurse, but now I am a stay-at-home-mom.

I have suffered multiple traumas from as far back as I can remember. Things got really bad around age 9 and went downhill from there. Most of my stuff is domestic or sexual, but I have recently had a couple of medical traumas as well.

For the past five years, I have focused so intensely on trying to get physically well that I thought I had gotten through the worst of the PTSD. However, I realized in May, when my Anorexia was back in full force, that I had obviously not learned how to effectively manage my PTSD.

I was amazed when I found this forum today. People who don't have PTSD just don't understand what it is like...just like I can't understand how it affects those around me.

I desperately want to get better, but I am so numb and dissociate so easily that I am afraid I never will. I am so terrified of feeling too much and not being able to turn it off.

I am so glad I found this forum...and was able to convince myself to join and post.