Hi Bec....Nancy here. I also have PTSD and Chronic PTSD. I am pretty sure all my sons except the youngest have PTSD. If only from the effects of me. My two oldest sons are 18 and 20. The younger 2 are here with me. My third son shows signs of PTSD and has been acting out in a recent breaking and entering and vandalism............ not so nice at age 10. Their father died over 4 years ago of drug overdose. I suspect there is a large issue there for them both. The older two do not have the same father but lived more through more hell.

I called last week (with a loving push) to get my sons help. I knew to do it and have been procrastinating because of my shame of not being a good enough parent. I have to let that guilt and pride go to help my sons. Its strategic therapy where they come in the home. I am a bit nervous and excited for us to begin the healing process though it will be painful too. Which reminds me, I need to discuss this with my therapist so she can work with the therapist who will be coming here. The strategic is minimum 5 hours a week. From what Ive been told, it is intense and I am afraid its going to throw me off the deep end. I havent been the best parent though I suppose living through my childhood full of every form of abuse then carryng it into my adulthood attempting to change the long ago stories (my insanity), raising kids by myself, they have turned out well so far. My 10 year old, who will be 11 at the end of the month, was with another bigger kid who is living in hell right now. The few people who know my son is shocked he had a part in the crime. The charges went down to vandalism which is because I work for the town I live in and they know my son. I didnt ask themt o be be easy on him as I want him to understand the consequences of his actions. Punishment will be community service. It will go off his record by age 18 should he not get in any more trouble. I see it as a cry for help from both boys. The place they did this to is a favorite place of thiers being the baseball field where they have both been very much welcomed for 3 years. Good boys who are confused and misunderstood by confused single moms just trying to take care of thier kids. The boy my son was with has suffered much more abuse. I am hoping the therapy is court ordered so the other boy has a chance at a decent life.

Anyhow, I am rambling, just wanted you to know you arent alone in the Chronic PTSD. I have been truly blessed with having AA 12 step program as the foundation for my recovery process with PTSD also. I know if I hadnt gotten sober, I wouldnt be sitting here right now posting this.

For me, this healing will take more than all the therapists in the world to assist me. I have to have a Higher Power and this HP has led me to the exact people in my life now who have went before me on this new adventure of healing who unconditionally love me and are guiding me on this journey. The journey IS the destination.

Take care
Nancy in VA