It's hard to keep anything in my head when I'm in, well I'm always critisizing myself. I have blinders when it comes to seeing anything positive. I should say thanks to my folks and my teenage peers. Besides being made fun of by my parents and my younger sisters (get upset and they'd say 'get a sense of humor, it's just a joke'...well those jokes aren't funny when they are at your expense), I was tormented by my peers. From 6th grade on through when I graduated.

I was even beat up in a girl's locker room for a rumor someone started about me which followed me through high school. People say kids can be cruel and rub it off but sometiems it goes beyond that. Sometimes kids can really mess up other kids, I think especially if they have a weak support system at home.