My hubs would have to come here to clarify (do not hold your breath) but I heard so often it is what he knows is in me, that woman he fell in love with is still there as why he holds on. It is not the same but a stronger version. The stories on end repeated I am sure my hubby can relate. Just seems like some things we are repeating to get it really did happen and process. And yep, he held back and said whoa, thankfully after the fact he still proposed... I think he was a bit of a fool as he had asked for a ticket into this hell. I know he would never trade it for what we have now in the short bossy version though!