I thought I was the only person that was sensitive to men and a change in their 'tone' of voice. My husband doesn't quite understand....I am very sensitive to a change in tone of voice and often interpret it as yelling. Probably because I was pretty much always getting yelled at and belittled by my father and then my ex....eh it all screwed me up.

I was able to figure out what triggered me pretty quick. I didn't realize that army men would set me off as badly as they did until I was deployed to an army R&R base. (Sole Respiratory Therapist on post)...they didn't need me, ironically I was sent home for being suicidal and yet the only patient I had the entire time I was there attempted suicide...I had a hand in saving his life.

I was obviously in the medical field in the Air Force.

I feel kinda guilty sometimes, but since my PTSD was more spousal abuse/child abuse/bully centered (in backwards order I suppose with the child abuse and bullying occurring first and then sucker punched by my ex's abuse)....being sent somewhere with the knowledge that my ex was an army medic....I totally lost my mind. I mean that literally.

And yet all these other troops are in actual war zones but I guess in my mind, fearing my ex might be somewhere despite anyone telling me the odds of it being otherwise....I was in my own personal war zone. (I think that actually makes sense now that I think of it).

Working in my workbook well I haven't gone too far with it.....my therapist told me to stop at the safety chapter (speaking of I have to work more on it so I can have that finished by Monday when I see her again)...

I think someone said that they never finish workbooks in another post, guilty as charged usually but I guess its different if you are working with the therapist that wrote the workbook. I can tell she'll be the type to not let me quit when things get rough and she will help me get through the work book too.

I'm rambling...sorry. My brain is active right now, I probably need to cut the caffiene after I'm finished with this diet Mt Dew....I drink it on days I'm just dazed....but it makes me all with the racing thoughts.

For the most part, I feel really welcome here on this forum....for the most part. I think that with the support and the knowledge of people similar to me, is going to be really helpful.