I think my boyfriend suffers from PTSD. He mentioned it before his 2nd deployment this past April to Iraq. he had begun to have anxiety breakdowns (just emotional) but I was there and got him through it by holding him. He was terrified to go back. Where he went ended up being very safe as opposed to last deployment in the middle of Baghdad and high combat and rocket attacks. Now he is in Baghdad International Airport, basically made into a huge base. We got closer and closer over the past 6 months and were doing so well. He said he felt safer than ever before and was doing so well besides a few days here and there of him being kinda sad and down when instant messaging). We grew up in school together and are best friends and so in love, on the same page in what we wanted in life, have mutual friends, he wanted me to move to GA when he comes home. to and everything was perfect. His shift changed (nothing new) but he said it was for a new mission. Then I didnt hear much from him for over a week (thinking he is adjusting to the new schedule and sleep and all). He then sends me a quick email through myspace and says he is having troubles with his anxiety. That if it gets worse he will go to a doctor. I encouraged him that I am there for him and love him. Then a week later he IM's me (5 weeks ago) and says I think we need a break. I say why are you doing this? He says he needs to think about the rest of his life. Since when?? I ask him questions and he says he already told me why and says he needs to sleep. I beg him not to leave me and he said he loves me too and got off line. I have written him and left love comments telling him I promised him I would stand by him so I am keeping my committment. He took my pictures down that next day from his myspace and moved me off his top friends (front page) and not a word but yet he is allowing me to leave love comments, left in a relationship as his status and hasnt erased or blocked me. I just dont get where all this came from. Until a week ago when my GF whose husband is at the same base writes me and says there was a mortar that hit a chow hall somewhere on that base and it killed 2 men and injured like 40. I checked the dates and it waas the day after he said he needed a break. So now I am thinking something triggered his PTSD, maybe hearing rokets and mortars the days around that time before one got in. I dont know but he is gone. He wont respond to any of my messages but he keeps reading them. I have stopped asking questions and now all I say is that I love him and am there for him, that I can't wait until he is home and of course I apologized for anything I may have done to cause this.....He contacted his family but they said he was short and got off quickly saying he is fine. He hasnt even told them about his anxieties as he did me. I dont know whats happening or what to do. He is the best man I have ever met, truly a loving, loyal and genuine gentleman and this is not like him, he is like someone else to me. Being in a loving emotional relationship is new to him too being overseas. Normally he would never want me hurting and would never leave me so I dont know how to fix this. My son is also in love with him and they were so close before he left. I want to keep my committment but I am so scared he will come home in January for his 18 day leave and not see me, when origionally he was going to stay with me because I live near his family. His deployment isnt up until probably atleast July of 08 and he really doesnt need to be there with his condition but I am sure he hides it. I cant lose him, we were so happy and I just want to help him through it. Has anybody heard of this being done to someone or know what I need to do???? Please help me. I have been sick over this and I feel like I am losing it.