Herc, right now I get my meds from a family doc, who really doesn't know me. I've only seen him a few times. I quess my ptsd has been in remission since 2004. Got triggered oct. 8th, ran off to hospital 5 days later, cause I got suicide.

Thats how I tend to deal with this. Its been a issue since 85 and almost everytime I go get locked up cause I thought it was just depression and I get suicidal. Didn't get ptsd diagnose till 2004. That was 1st time abuse was triggered. I quess this time its from memories coming back. Other times it was triggered was because had 2 nieces die in car accidents 10 years apart. That triggered grief: Had 6 family members and friends die from 73 to 76. Started with my dad when I was 13 ended with his dad when I was 17. Didn;t deal with any of it. Mother ran off and got a new family that didn't want us. I lived in trailer with 2 brothers and she lived 20 miles away in different town with new family. Drugs and alcohol got me through those years.