TX, keep working on everything and be kind to yourself. This time of the year is hard. Holidays are supposed to be fun, but to me they are just one anxiety attack. I panicked and had to run out of Macy's the other day.

I hit bottom before I went into therapy. I asked myself if I wanted to live or give up and do what I was already doing. Getting help and working with a therapist was one of the best things I ever did for myself. My decision was to give therapy my all and get better. After each therapy session I was exhausted, but I kept going. Getting better was the only thing on my mind.

I agree with SheCat that it will be one of the hardest things you may do. Personal experience taught me that being in control of your own destiny will allow you to trust yourself.

Take your time and find a good therapist. I was fortunate that I picked a "t" who was very understanding about PTSD brought about by sexual trauma.

Faith is all important, so keep that faith and keep moving forward...

vst