Well diary do I have news for you. I got a phone call last night that put me on the floor. After missing from my life for about 12 years----MY DAUGHTER CALLED ME---OMG! I am still in shock and just thinking seems to be hard. We talked and cryed and talk and cryed. She not only is alive and well, she is fantastic! She got marrried to a fantastic(her sense) man who adores her, she has fabulous in laws and the most emotional part of this is I have a beautiful new granddaughter who is 11 days old!!!!!!

My daughter could not to apologize to me enough last night for cutting me out of her life. She cryed when she spoke of how she was not able to share the most important events of her life with me and how sorry she was to have caused me that much pain.

Now that she is a mother she has realized that I do love her. She said she looked into the face of her new baby girl and instantly knew that I do love her. That little face showed her the truth. I love my daughter with all my heart and would lay down my life for her and NOW SHE FINALLY KNOWS! She has looked into the face of that beautiful baby and finally realizes the true depth of my pain caused by her cutting me out of her life.

But the best part of this gift is we are back together with what appears to be a repaired relationship. I have a son-in-law, in-laws, a brand new grandbaby, my daughter back and NOW SHE KNOWS. I LOVE HER I WANT HER I FORGIVE HER

Now all I need to do is SEE HER TOUCH HER KNOW THIS IS REAL ! ! ! omg! ! !