Oh Jim, I am so sorry. No wonder you understand! I have not had the opportunity to hear your story or get to know you so I was unaware. Is she Ok now? In fact now that I recall, someone mentioned you and how you would understand and could possibly help smooth the reintroduction process for me but I did not understand what it meant.

You are right, words can not explain the feeling. I absolutly could not breathe for 2 days and in fact it is still very fresh. She called us Friday evening. My heart skips beats, my head spins and I can't breathe. Tell this to a doc and he would think I was having a stroke or something. My head feels like it is going to simply explode. I am experiencing the strangest kind of elated anxiety? I just don't know what to do first.
I tryed to shop for a few groceries this morning, well that was a joke. I can't concentrate, I just keep thinking OMG she called---OMG she is OK---OMG there is a new baby girl and then the weeping starts. Joyous elation mixed with some fear that if I say or do the the wrong thing it will all go away again. I should act normal, but what in the hell does that mean. Oh Jim, I am terrified I'll loose her again. How do I get over this intense fear and not let it get in the way?????