Hello Kells,

Welcome here. I've always dreamed of having someone who would 'understand' (I've never had a relationship). But that implies someone as messed up as me, how would that work!? I really hope you can hold it together. I certainly feel for you when you say you thought it would get better once you were out of it. I thought as soon as I left home I'd start healing and it would all drift far away in my mind, but it's still all there and I can't escape it. I suppose being needed (and needed by six children, too) helps keep you going. I hope the both of you can work together on the forum, it would be an interesting perspective to follow the progress of.