Yes. I appreciate that. Do you mind my asking if you experienced the same things (maybe not exactly but you know) where my BF was one day saying he is finally glad he found the right person and how blessed he is and how much he loves me and wants me to move with him when he comes back and then suddenly drops to I think we need a break. i need to think abotu my life. Like, did you go from one extreme to another. To me it feels like something big or traumatic must have triggered this and as I said he is reading my messages and leaving my love comments up on his myspace but not writing back yet. I sent him a 2 ft christmas tree for his trailer and ornaments and christmas cookies I baked. He is normally a very sentimental and extremely loving man and he is almost shut off it seems. Its like he is someone else....He has an 18 day leave coming in January but I am scared for him to return after that with his actions showing he is not healthy emotionally. I am scared he wont see me and talk to me about it but I keep reassuring him I love him and am here and I cant wait tosee him, hoping with how serious we were he will not beable to be 10 min from me and come by. I so appreciate any perspective from someone with this disorder I can get so thank you....