I appreciate your thoughts and everyones. I am doing all I can to do what he asked me to do but I am just honestly worried for him there by himself with even just depression and anxiety. I am not for certain he does have PTSD. To be honest I didnt even know what it was. He actually said to me that he thinks he has PTSD before he left and was on meds when he came back last time but I dont recall if he said he was diagnosed, all I know was he had been on meds and has gone through alot. Its not so easy to explain obviously. I guess you have to know him like i know him to know something is very wrong. Luckily I have an idea since as I may have said, I found out there was a big attack on the base (which he had previously felt safer at) on the same day as the day he said we need a break so atleast I can see what may have triggered it. Its not just me he is cold to everyone and not talking to anyone but his mom and is even short with her, so I know he went through something and I am just concerned for his well being. I think he knew what he may do and how he changed before so thats why he warned me and I was basing it on that. But I am going to try the approach of not writing him a while, although I am scared to death because he has never had a time without me writing him and because I promised him to stick by him but I will try anything to help him get through whatever is going on. Thanks alot. God bless...