No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. - I Corinthians 10:13


We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about the hardships we suffered in the province of Asia. We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired even of life. Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. - 2 Corinthians 1:8-9

Those two quotes.. are dragged out to say that we are never given more than we can handle. If that is the case, why do I have PTSD?

I don't even know if I believe in god. I don't have a before PTSD, it's always been PTSD. And I have more than I can handle plus some. Many of us who suffer commit suicide just to make it stop.

I find that when someone tries to help me understand why I have endured so bloody much and why I suffer so much, these useless quotes that just make it seem like God's a big fairy tale, get dragged out and put me off the issue even further.

If I did believe in God, I'd be some pissed of at him/her!

Also, the lovely God loves us as a father one really gets me too. I'm a mother. Not only am I a mother with PTSD, I'm the mother of a son with PTSD. If I had it within my power to end my son's suffering, you bet your ass I would. So If God loves me as a father, why are there people like us in this world?

Personally, I don't want an afterlife. I'm already exhausted and would just like blissful nothingness after this.

So.. how does it affect it? It leave a trail of confusion and a bunch of useless, meaningless answers from supposed men of God. It leaves me in a middle ground where I wish I could believe.. but I'm proof that what is said is just not true.

bec