Today I am grateful that I am having more good days than bad days. The bad days are not as bad. In recent weeks, I have been able to see a dim light at the end of this dark tunnel. At least I hope so.
Recently I had a patient's wife comment on how we see the worst of the worst in the ER. Surprisingly, I told her we also get a chance to see the best of the best as well. I do see the worst and best of humanity in my patients, their families, my co-workers, and myself. This past year I haven't been able to see or feel anything beyond the worst. I am starting to catch a glimpse of the better parts of my own humanity, i.e. strength in weakness, my own bravery. It has been encouraging and motivating.

Take care of you and have a good day everyone.