I've had it since about 1999... that was about the time I went of the rails. I have only sought help since 2003, when my wife forced me too. It is from that point I wanted answers, because I never did like doctors, nor the theory that always gets thrown at a person, instead of experience... ie. they don't have PTSD, so how the hell would they know what I am going through. Saying that though, doctors definately are needed in the early stages, and possibly during your lifetime at points when things really go to shit, and they will really go to shit at points.

Once your at a level to accept what is happening, that is the point at which you can begin to seek the proper help from such learning resources as attending the PTSD Course, or PTSD groups and so forth. The good thing is, is that your here, so you've obviously gotten past the denial, and now into the learning and how to cope and manage what you have. That is a really good thing, knowing from my own experience thus far. You should give yourself a pat on the back young&angry, cause your on your long road to living a better life than that if you remained in denial about the problem, and suppressed the problems at hand.