I kind of feel like a doormat now that I am being so loving and he has cut communication, yet he reads my mail and responds to others even briefly but then I think he may have goine through something and thinks it is best for me....I dont know. A couple of my friends who have been there say alot of soldiers try to protect the people they love most by cutting contact in case something happens to them. I dont get that but thats just something I have heard. All of this started with his anxiety though. Thanks you guys.