Myaleah why not take a break at the moment for yourself as well? It is very good to work these things out for yourself, well done. However you seem to be worrying quite a bit about what he is doing and thinking and so on. Carers also need a break, for our own mental health and happiness. Why not do something fun for yourself, with friends, or with your child (I believe I read you have a child?), go on an outing, buy yourself a gift, or whatever you are able to do. It can be tricky, however also important to not allow everything to revolve around the PTSD sufferer. You count too, and you deserve happiness.