I'm feeling really anxious after reading some of those posts, and honestly I don't even know if my shock has worn off. But I can tell you when it developed.


It was the moment I realized that I might die from my injury... the moment I looked at my friends for reassurance and they just screamed, I remember holding my face tightly trying to keep it together... and then.... I felt nothing... I stopped screaming and just sat there... I could hear my friends begging me to answer them... but it was like I suddently didn't care about anything. My eyes closed and I refused to open them, I wouldn't face reality

On the way to hospital... after not saying anything yet... I remember asking for a smoke, smoking that cigerette was my only way of dealing with that situation, I didn't hear anyone, I never opened my eyes... I concentrated on the strong smoke filling my lungs, and that was it... I think someone actually had to hold the smoke up to my mouth for me, I don't remember... it just felt like there was no way I could open my eyes and return to reality

Seeing as my local hospital was unable to reconstruct what had been done, I was sent to another city 5 hours away. While waiting for surgery I joked with family and Doctors... basically in denial that the whole thing had happend. The nurses just kept me pumped full of morphine to ease the pain.

After surgery... I remember the Doctor coming in, he sat down and and explained the extent of my injuries. I couldn't list them all to you because after he listed the first one I broke down. I couldn't stop sobbing, and I didn't care who saw, I cried the entire 5 hour drive back home. It was horrible.

I don't know much about shock, for all I know I'm still in shock. But I know that this would basically of been the worst of my shock experiences.