Kathy,
I have been where Evie is right now - having my carer ask me not to cry for the sake of my lungs in order to keep me from another trip to the ER, hospitalization for lungs' sake, etc. From our perspective, it is probably as difficult as you are already aware it is. The intense need to cry and the frustration that doing so puts us at more risk. But as my godmother states, the lungs trump the emotions. At this point, breathing has to be the priority above all else including PTSD. Deep down and maybe even on the surface we understand that and I know Evie is sensible enough to understand it. It just is kind of a double whammy because even if I wasn't going to cry, being asked not to was emotionally painful but definitely worth it trying to keep out of the hospital and breathe. I am thinking of you all and praying for quick relief for Evie's lungs and spirit.
Grace |